Half of... what?

Here's my philosophy. There are people who are natural magnets, those who attract their polar opposites, and eventually, in that sea of magnets, find the one that naturally are drawn to them. There are those who seem to be electro-magnets, whose alternating and varying currents draw a variety of people to them romantically throughout their lives. And there are those people (not unlike myself) who are like a magnet broken in half. They will draw many kinds of other magnets, but only one will fit perfectly and spend the entirety of their magnet lives trying to find the other half.

I've always thought it to be bullshit when people label themselves as half of one whole, those who require another to make them whole or complete. "You complete me" Jerry Maguire? Bullshit. Or so I thought. Being the ultra-sensitive person that my friends and exes can attest met to be, I'm not so sure anymore. While I, like everyone else, have spent my time alone, I find myself to be so much more when with someone, even when being 'with' someone is a facade created within my mind. Whether this is a fault or a factor default, or perhaps a programmed response, it seems to be who I am.

Finding myself in a situation where someone might want to be with me but can't, and another where he could be with me but isn't, just really makes one take stock of the entire relationship situation and attempt to say, "Hey, being in a relationship is bullshit... but I can't help but yearn for it"

Point being, swimming through vodka to find it, is that relationships of any caliber are hard. And breaking off those that are no longer beneficial, except through your own devices, are the most difficult.

If you find yourself in the same situation, as I expect we all do... I wish you luck. And offer you the ear and shoulder of someone whose been through the same time and time again.

Currently listening :
Back to Black
By Amy Winehouse
Release date: 13 March, 2007